mother*wonder Monday {eight} - When it seems like you're the only one who cares

Hello, Hello...I realize it is Saturday {smile}.

I had to take a little break in the playroom series for 

a mother*wonder post, long overdue.

The sun is shining here brightly.

My boys are into another round of sickness,

so it's a blah day with rays of light.

The Beatles, Here Comes the Sun, is playing in my head.

I am really working today on feeling like I am 

always listening to others, but not feeling like its reciprocated much.

I am not naive to think I am the world's greatest listener,

I would not be anywhere near the top of that list, probably not even the middle.

What I mean is this.  I am always hearing about friends children,

their ailments, friends ailments and problems, some truly serious,

and I listen, I try to encourage, hope, pray,

but I feel the minute I want to share, 

I am shut down.

It's hard and I am trying to figure out why I feel this way.

I am not throwing any parties here today, especially the pity kind.

I just need to find a way to not always be the listener.

To have a moment to vent and speak too.

It's frustrating.

I feel like Ethan's cancer has a statute of limitations even though a whole

new world has opened up here.  He is thank God cancer-free and doing

great {well except today he's horribly sick} , but he has lots of questions about it.

It's not something we can ignore.  We have to discuss it.

We have always been open about it.  He is too curious and too smart to not be.

We are handling it well and he is good.

He knows God's plans for him are big, far, and wide. 

It's just that it's hard because everyone thinks over and done.

Let's put that on the shelf all nicely tied up along with 

all the other things we are still working through with my little boys.

I kind of feel like I am not supposed to talk about any of it to anyone anymore.

Not so fun.

Thank God for God {grin} and for my husband.  

I realize we all have things we don't share all the time or most of the time.

Nor do I want to discuss any of this even a fraction of any time.

Just to be able to say hey this is what's happening would be nice.

Maybe to have the same courtesy given to listen?

Thankful to share here today.  Feels good to get it out.

I hope you all have a beautiful Saturday!

See you soon,

{michelle}