I am not a perfect mom.
Not that anyone thought I was {grin}.
In fact I fail at it often.
Lose my patience,
get distracted from the important moments,
allow myself to be pulled into the what-does-not-matter.
This week was especially difficult.
On the verge of the school year starting,
E was told by a friend that someone
said our family was bad.
I think it's the first time it happens to your child
that it hurts the most.
My sweet boy was sad about it, but
said I'm going to stand up for myself!
Then asked what it meant to do so.
Exactly what aches the most,
innocence lost.
I know, get over it {yes!}
but that's what has always upset me,
the untruth.
My anger lasted a few days,
I tried hard, prayed hard to fight it.
We as a family are fine of course.
We count our blessings,
in fact I am about to add a few more to the list.
In reality,
I don't care if it affects me.
If it affects my kids,
this mama bear will rise up.
I realize this is just a drop in the bucket.
People will say whatever they want.
I am not about to give the negativity any more air time.
So what can I do for my boys?
I pray for their protection.
I pray for their self-confidence to be rock-solid.
I teach them they are not of this world,
so it's going to be tough sometimes.
As moms we need to find words
that bring peace to our souls
in the midst of all we manage.
I surely don't have to share that list with you.,
but I would like to share two reads that have helped me
so much this week. Maybe they'll help you too.
Sarah Young's Jesus Calling, I have only had it for 3 days and I crave reading
it each day, so appropriate.
These relevant, wise, and achingly true words from Ann Voskamp.
I can struggle with focusing on the one bad thing,
instead of the overwhelming good things
like these...
128. always having a hand to hold
and a hug to give
129. empathy running through our veins
130. friends who will do anything for you
131. end of summer day walks
132. morning chaos and routine
{the hardest for me, but still grateful for both chaos and routine}
133. a little boy who LOVES school
134. being able to physically care for my children
135. grace times a trillion
136. a man who gets that what I need most
is for him to just understand.
137. humility
138. a son saying funny! instead of laughing,
he gets humor!
139. introducing Louis Armstrong, Ella Fitzgerald
into my oldest boy's world and having him
get why I get teary-eyed...he gets that music moves.
140. this song, this song, and this one too.
AMEN.
141. love amplified
Tomorrow, I will be linking up to....
In fact I fail at it often.
Lose my patience,
get distracted from the important moments,
allow myself to be pulled into the what-does-not-matter.
This week was especially difficult.
On the verge of the school year starting,
E was told by a friend that someone
said our family was bad.
I think it's the first time it happens to your child
that it hurts the most.
My sweet boy was sad about it, but
said I'm going to stand up for myself!
Then asked what it meant to do so.
Exactly what aches the most,
innocence lost.
I know, get over it {yes!}
but that's what has always upset me,
the untruth.
My anger lasted a few days,
I tried hard, prayed hard to fight it.
We as a family are fine of course.
We count our blessings,
in fact I am about to add a few more to the list.
In reality,
I don't care if it affects me.
If it affects my kids,
this mama bear will rise up.
I realize this is just a drop in the bucket.
People will say whatever they want.
I am not about to give the negativity any more air time.
So what can I do for my boys?
I pray for their protection.
I pray for their self-confidence to be rock-solid.
I teach them they are not of this world,
so it's going to be tough sometimes.
As moms we need to find words
that bring peace to our souls
in the midst of all we manage.
I surely don't have to share that list with you.,
but I would like to share two reads that have helped me
so much this week. Maybe they'll help you too.
Sarah Young's Jesus Calling, I have only had it for 3 days and I crave reading
it each day, so appropriate.
These relevant, wise, and achingly true words from Ann Voskamp.
I can struggle with focusing on the one bad thing,
instead of the overwhelming good things
like these...
128. always having a hand to hold
and a hug to give
129. empathy running through our veins
130. friends who will do anything for you
131. end of summer day walks
132. morning chaos and routine
{the hardest for me, but still grateful for both chaos and routine}
133. a little boy who LOVES school
134. being able to physically care for my children
135. grace times a trillion
136. a man who gets that what I need most
is for him to just understand.
137. humility
138. a son saying funny! instead of laughing,
he gets humor!
139. introducing Louis Armstrong, Ella Fitzgerald
into my oldest boy's world and having him
get why I get teary-eyed...he gets that music moves.
140. this song, this song, and this one too.
AMEN.
141. love amplified
Tomorrow, I will be linking up to....
Wishing you a week full of your mother*wonder.
{Michelle}
Michelle, reading this I couldn't help but relate to you. Thank you for sharing your heart. It's beautiful! The first few sentences are an exact reflection of how I've been feeling this past week. I've lost my patience so many times - especially with my 3 year old who has more WILL in him than I have EVER HAD in my whole life. Someday I believe God is going to use him for great things - and his strong will is what will drive him to be a mighty warrior for the Lord! Until then I, like you am trying to hang on to the great things in my life rather than focusing so hard on the negative & the challenges I'm facing...
ReplyDeletePs. Our morning routines are crazy too. Tomorrow I will remember to pray for you while I manage ours :) I have never had to depend on the Lord so much in my life! :) For that I'm so thankful for this chaos. I'm sure you know what I mean.