I don't know if it's the rain, the fact that my boys have been super sick for days, or that I woke them up this morning by dragging them into the basement to sit through the storm, right before our beloved kids pool was blown clear to Kansas. I have been holding onto this post for a bit, and today seems like the right day to share it. It also comes on the heels of asking for support with my blog from a group of people whom I admire and share a common bond with and well that just wasn't meant to be.
My husband gently reminds me that this being good for me, fun, an outlet, has to stay at the heart of it and he is right. Yet this blogging thing has been on my mind for awhile now. If it is what I should be doing right now, where I am meant to be, will I regret that I am giving time to it? I have a hard time keeping a journal, but I have always loved to write, it is cathartic. While I am not new to blogging, I even blogged a little with my oldest, I have always felt it was a bit narcissistic, but maybe that is because I tend to not like the limelight. I also tend to not want to jump on a bandwagon unless there is a super compelling amazing reason. I want to keep the right things at the heart of my blog and not do it for my own ego.
I would be lying if I said I thought it would be easy. While I absolutely love my new blog layout and feel at home in this space, I think it would be common to feel defeated from the onset looking at all the shiny, pretty blogs out there. I am also a bit discouraged that it seems there is only room for one type of blog or maybe it's just trying to find my space in blogworld. This is about my life, our life, and all that encompasses including, motherhood, raising boys, quadruplets, childhood cancer, kids spaces, projects, ideas, inspiration, and more. I love that it speaks to who I am right now, who the seven of us are together,our world. I couldn't do it any other way.
Well, what did you think I would give up that easily? I have too much of a track record...putting myself through college...giving birth to 4 boys within minutes...I could go on for days. It'll take a lot more than that, but I am glad to finally get it all out. I thank you for being here with me. Ahh, what do you know the sun is finally shining {thank heaven}and I feel free to be doing this for all the right reasons.
Hi Michelle! I love reading other blogs of fellow quad moms. I also blog, but I do it in hopes that my children will have something to remind them of what they mean to me. I know what you mean about loving to write, but having trouble finding the time. I have a hard time keeping up with mine, and a harder time keeping up with others. I do enjoy reading though when I do find the time, so I hope you continue to write about your amazing journey!
ReplyDeleteLiz Stewart
Michelle- I LOVE your blog- keep at it. I wonder so many things about it as well- sometimes I think- who am I doing this for? Am I doing it to entertain people....because I rarely get comments, so hard to know who reads and why??? My main start was to share with distant family/friends who wanted to know all about what we did and watch the kiddos grow up. Then...quads came along and we ended up sharing in the world of quad blogging...I think! I can't compete with many of them of out there, nor am I trying to-but to keep my focus on WHY I blog- I don't have much adult interaction...ok, none during the day, It is somewhat "therapy" if you will for me, as well as so many other things. Sharing our life (as much as I can without sharing everything-getting judged) and never knowing if there's even ONE person out there that I can reach...somehow, whatever it be- As long as it doesn't affect the safety of our family...I'll keep going. Please keep going! The only thing I will say, is FOR ME- maybe it's my old age, but the color of your posts is hard to see (could just be me) - BUT...love it! Loved your old one, love this one too! Keep on keeping on! You're loved!
ReplyDeleteI am SO GLAD you blog, and I have felt many of these same emotions. You have to do what's best for YOU and your family and try your hardest not to compare.
ReplyDeleteThis is a BEAUTIFUL space, and I'm glad you've shared it with us!
Thanks mamas for the encouragement, you're the best!!
ReplyDeleteI started to comment on this the other night and for what ever reason it got lost...anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate your honesty and the way in which you can put your emotions into words. Which really, is sometimes the best part about blogging. You have such well thought out posts and through them, the reflection of love for your family shines through. Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThanks Rachel, I appreciate the support!!
ReplyDeleteokay. my laundry's in. lol...
ReplyDeleteI think the niche type blogging isn't all that interesting. I like blogs that have a full life: crafts, foods, kids, decor. A well-rounded blog if you will.
It's like a good magazine with varied content.
I've only been sharing my blog publicly since October 2010, but I agree. It's cathartic. I don't think I would have survived the trials of my own struggles with special needs motherhood and crazy diets, etc without blogging.
:) I hope you keep it up as your own personal piece of the world.